all alone

So i was walking thru my school.. and i decided to sit by a window and look at the view from where i was.. its one of my favorite places to be. I do all my thinking there, homework, studying.. everything. and i always do it alone. I used to be afraid of being alone cause i have a way of breaking myself down. So i always feared being alone i always wanted somebody by my side, someone to talk to.. but i have started to realize that being alone is really not that bad.. Its almost a relief to be by myself cause all you have are your own expectations to follow.. no one elses.. im not saying that i have a desire for it to be me, myself, and i.. I like hanging with friends and family, but i really have come to enjoy that me time.. cause i no longer feel sad or maybe depressed.. it almost makes me happy to view out the window and just wonder..
people always tend to feel bad for the people you see in the hallways sitting alone.. you wonder what they might be going thru.. but maybe thats just how they like it to be.. sometimes things are just easier when alone. there is no one to judge you. to tell you that your hair looks horrible.. that you need to lose weight.. that im a horrible person.. the list keeps going on and on.. all we do is judge people and sometimes we feel the need to correct ourselves to become better then there critizicm. Its like when you walk thru a place full of people.. you know that you even to judge them.. see the couple and ask why is he with her... see someone with just something that doesnt fit your standards and you either think something in your head or tell someone.. all we do is judge the person we see. their every move.. how they look..EVERYTHING.. but doesnt it matter what they have to show from the inside.. that maybe beyond all your judgements that you will see a great person. Someone who will and can defeat all those judgements before giving them a chance.
This is just some of the many reasons i like to be alone. I dont have to feel the pressure from whomever i am with.. I dont have to sit there and wonder what they might be thinking about what i said or how i look.. cause all we do is wonder.. are they lying.. because the truth is everything.. it may hurt but at least its the truth. So when being alone all these worries go away.. This is where you find the true you..