Insecure

I felt like everything was going perfectly.. I was so happy.. it was like i didnt have a care in the world because i had you to talk to, when i didnt have the ones i really wanted to talk to also.. I felt secure laying with you and you holding me. I got butterflies when you put your hand across my stomach. I felt so secure and that it felt so right. I put aside all your flaws that i knew my parents would never approve of just because it felt good having someone close to me.. and honestly i didnt want anything more than that.. Im the type who really cant handle the emotional stuff that comes along i liked it how it was. I felt like u liked me. u even said so in so many ways.. and would miss me when time would pass away. It still leaves me confused that u wanted to see me but i didnt show up!.. and then decide to ignore me and then tell me you were not attracted to me.. It does seem like you were scared. i could have lived with out you ever talking to me again, but you just had to make a comment that makes me feel so insecure. and i just wish you would disapear and that you were erased cause i think i did really like you, but knew that it would end soon.. cause of you and that i was the only one who would see you for you. cause now all i have left is to let it go. there is nothing more i can do.. and that someone will eventually come along and will make me feel secure again.