So alittle earlier today i was part of a really emotional situation.. i was out with a friend and she got a phone call from somebody we work with. she was crying and told her she was walking down the road and asked her she would come get her. So we went and picked her up.. As soon as she got in the car she started expressing her feelings about her situation with her husband.. She was crying, yelling.. she was so out of her head.. cause she has been stuck with this guy for so long controlling her! and she wants her life to be ok not a constant fight. she cannot afford to leave, but she has to.. she has kids to pay for.. so many things to worry about.. and she wanted us to take her over to the drug addicts house that we also work with.. she wanted to get drunk.. to wash away the pain.. and that she was not going to make any promises about how things are gonna turn out after tonight..
All i know is that i had a slightly rough day today.. i started off with crying today over some stupid guy.. but by the end of the day i was in a good mood.. but as soon as she got in the car and i had to feel what she was feeling, my mood was almost like a depressed type of mood.. cause i had to listen to her pain while she was yelling at this guy she is married to.. and then crying when he didnt even seem to care that she meant nothing to him basically.. and me and my friend we just didnt know what to say.. What do you say to a person when they are upset? Do we ever know what to say.. cause honestly it dont make it better even if you try to help them.. the pain is still going to be there.. your heart is still going to ache.. and you just dont think when things get so bad.. that sometimes you do stupid things. but while i was sitting in that car i was just wondering why do we have to go thru the things that we do.. like why do we deserve to have to feel some of the things that we do. that hurt, sad emotional feeling sucks.. it can be downer on anybody.. i dont know why im writing about this, but it really got to me.. Like why do people have to be the way they are... like what is going thru that persons mind when they are treating you badly.. or messing with your feelings.. just flat out why would you want to be that way towards someone when especially they dont deserve it... i just dont understand.. how someone can be so coldhearted.. and i just hate it.. I just wish everyone could be happy all the time. especially me.. like my happy moments never seem to stay.. i always recall something.. and my mood crumbles.. the things people do to us.. if effects us... maybe some not as bad as others.. but it does.. and i just wish there was some other way around this emotion..
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